Once again I have missed a couple of Wednesdays and since I should be working on my lecture for tomorrow I figured it would be a good time to blog(sounds pretty typical, right?). As I realized and caught up on my actual journal on Monday with 15 pages filled, I realized I have also been neglecting my blog recently. I have been overcome with emotions in many ways(good emotions) and with a new relationship I have spending a lot of my time that I could be writing on here being intentional with Dam and writing to him as opposed to writing on here.
This week we had 3 snow days(no idea what will happen with school tomorrow but hopefully we will be there). And as I have told many people, I used to enjoy the snow. I used to long for frosted trees and hours of playing in the snow with my siblings. But honestly this winter I am a little tired of it. It is not to the point that I hate snow like I hate rain(which I am working on as well), but it has sapped up a lot of my momentum and I don’t appreciate it. I always wanted snow on my birthday, but last week I was thankful that my birthday was one of the few days that we didn’t have snow.
So now for some reflections at the beginning of 26.
First off, I have realized how much I appreciate quality time. I have always claimed to be a Words of Affirmation kind of person but have recently come to understand how much I crave quality time with those I care about. I guess I could have come to this epiphany sooner when I know that I love to spend time on the phone or in person catching up with friends.
Secondly, there will be people in your life that you will want to be more intentional with than others. I hate to say at times that I prioritize relationships but I think it is important to come to the place in your life when you can prioritize. I have friends from different periods in my life that the Lord has blessed me with in community and the reality is that there are some friends that will stick with you through all seasons, and there are others that will only be with you for a season. I am thankful for the people that the Lord has brought into my life in both spheres.
Thirdly, getting older isn’t scary at all and I am actually really enjoying my mid-twenties(almost late twenties) more than I ever thought that I would. Now this is coming from the girl who had an utter meltdown when she turned twenty and whom has been insecure about the fact that I am going gray early. But honestly I am loving this time of life, college was a blast and there are times when I long for my days in Blacksburg, China was awesome and I wouldn’t trade the adventures and experiences I had there during my early twenties, but being in this in-between, transitional phase of life is no longer scary-it’s just been fun.
Finally, I am learning to embrace the unexpected and more excited for adventures than I ever have been before. Be it a new relationship, a new restaurant, a road not yet traveled, or a group of people. My structured, routine self is finding once again how great adventure can be, especially when shared with those you care about!
It’s been a great start to this year and I am so looking forward to where the Lord takes me this year, there are a lot of unknowns but I am embracing them and trusting the Lord to guide my steps. Enjoy your Wednesday and thanks for reading. Zaijian.